Personalities inside Personalities

The last has been really interesting. I have been a bit lazy and have not updated this blog.

Discovered new personalities. All told their ages span from 4 years to 60+ years. Understand that there is an ongoing study in the UK which is trying to determine if personalities have fixed life spans. Any comments? In my opinion as long as the personalities are happy and have a purpose, they will continue to exist.

When I was young, I remember my mother showing me a box, which had a smaller box inside, which had a smaller box inside, which had a smaller box inside.... I just discovered that all my baby personalities have at least one personality inside them. The baby personalities were all created when I was quite young. The personalities inside them (shall call them PIPs) were created almost simultaneously. They all uniformly say that the cause for creations was to take care of the babies. Are there personalities inside them? Do not think so, but who knows. One of the babies had two personalities inside her, one escaped recently to become an independent personality. Kept shouting for an entire week, I escaped Ma, I escaped Ma.

The advantage in being a personality is that it is similar to being shut in a prison with occasional visits to the yard. While it is dark inside, you can see, hear, smell, taste etc. Over a period of time, with practice and effort you can communicate with the host through thought & speech and you can similarly communicate with the other personalities. The PIPs though can experience all this only when the personalities in whom they reside come out. This is a luxury they all enjoy. Occasionally when the resident personality is out, they jump out pushing their host-personality inside and take a peep at the outside world. They are generally photo-sensitive and have limited likes and dislikes. Their primary purpose seems to be protect their host-baby-personalities.

I plan to post regularly from now on. Next fortnight, the youngest personality (has been 4 years old for the last 20 odd years) will share her thoughts. She lisps a bit and walks like a child. Has a 120+ IQ and speaks 4 languages. Shall keep the personal details to a minimum. If there are comments /queries which you would not like to post in the blog, feel free to email me (check the profile for my email address).

Personalities in a personality

We are now 25 + 3. 25 of us are the main personalities inside.

In addition there are personalities-in-personalities. Needless to say all these three are inside the baby personalities and have been with them from the time they were created. They are all tough and their primary task is to come out when the babies feel threatened.

Like all of us they were photo sensitive when they first came out. Though they are inside baby personalities, they are all adults and seem well aware of who they are. Of course when they come out, our host body suffers from headaches.

We are a well knit team - babies, girl gang, boys and other adults. We speak 12 languages all put together. It is a problem though when we decide to watch TV.

Shall post more regularly from now on. I see that the psychiatric community is not too knowledgeable when it comes to dealing with us. For instance they talk about integration and fusion of personalities. That is a whole pile of b/s.

Imagine you have been traumatized. Then you are imprisoned in a dark room. You have a small smoked glass window through which you can see the world but cannot come out. Each time you do people misunderstand your presence, laugh at or worse still shout at you. You cannot have your own friends (outside), go to school if you are a child or take your own decisions. Then some smart ass doctor decides that he needs to help the host body by getting rid of you. He drives you into a state of shock in which you cannot speak or even articulate your thoughts to your host body or fellow personalities. That is fusion my friends. In the real world outside this would be called torture.

More later.

Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?

"Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?"

I do not know the answer to that but can confirm that we personalities do dream. In fact we can follow the dream which our host body / other personalities have. Sort of being blind but still watching a movie. If it gets a bit scary we can always influence the script by putting a couple of well intentioned thoughts in our host body's brain.

The dreams spring from the memory which we all share. Each of us dreams in a language we are comfortable with. Two of my pals inside who suffer from speach related problems also dream.

Our host body often forgets the dream. However, we are able to recall it fully. Are we able to tap that portion of the memory which stores the dream temporarily?

25 & growing

A couple of quick comments. There are now 25 of us inside and it is getting a bit crowded. Ages 4 to 66. A lot of chatter. Plenty of queries, mostly personal which will not be answered. Instead will post our views on our personality world and answer doubts which are specific to us.

Personalities by and large share a common memory. However, our individual memory basically commences from the time we were created. Like in Rashomon each of us has a different perspective of events. Some studies suggest that we are present in the hippocampus. An interesting way of explaining our presence would be like ...... a Horcrux. In our case, it is not our soul which is framgmented but our memory and possibly our host's consciousness. Is this a way of coping with trauma ? Multiple and alternate paths wired to deal with such situations?

Your views ....